Am I a demanding person?
Do I expect others to be like me as well?
Do I actually demand the same expectations of what I have set for myself on others?
I am somewhat perplexed by this.
I have been told by people since when I was still in school that I have pretty high expectations for myself. Often times, I try to do things that exceed expectations however much to the chagrin of my classmates. To them, it was an outright portrayal of an over-competitive person who just wanted to be at the top. Yet, to me, it was just my way of showing others what I am actually capable of.
I have been somewhat cast aside by people within my paternal family. Often times, I feel that they are just putting on a facade to humour me for that moment and after that, everything returns to status quo. Perhaps it is because of their judgmental and superficial stance towards my mum, my sister and myself that ignited a rather odd flame within me to want to do something different.
I admit that I set pretty high expectations for myself. I also know that in many instances when I failed to meet them, I would mellow in a temporal state of self-reproach before working even harder. I tend to be rather hard on myself then on others.
Do my friends, I except them for who they are and learn to appreciate them. However, to my love ones, I tend to demand more from them. It almost seems that I expect them to be an exact replica of me, something which sounds profoundly ludicrous. Perhaps, I should learn to appreciate them for who they are rather then to think of ways to try and change them.
